HELLO world. It has been awhile since my last update for this crap little thing of mine. So, hello again! This month had been so terrific especially when my ex-bf nadal won his 2nd wimbloden, and finally became the world number 1 tennis player (again) acknowledging the defeat of roger federer! woHOo..yup, roger is OUT! hehe the best thing of all, my favorite team for this year WORLD CUP, had actually won against Holland! YES! YES! HO,HO,HO.. And to make it more awesome, i actually had the chance to watch usher’s concert live in Bukit Jalil, (thanks to my both sisters, i LOVE YOU J) with kak mimie and her friends. Its been pretty great, except for the current job that i’m having.
I seriously detest this job now, eventhough the pay check is quite high, but i couldnt bare the fact of being scolded every single day for things which is obviously isnt my fault. Isnt it unfair for them to just released their anger to us? Sumpah bodo diaorg tu,k. Iv once told kak mimie that i am going to quit the job but cancel those thoughts when she replied “ IF being scolded every day for the things that u never do wrong, could actually bring food to the table, why should you stop?” B.A.B.I She never knew what it feels like to be curse like “fuck u!, Cibai, Go to hell!” by those (obviously) uneducated customers, and dont get me wrong. I am not saying that i am annoyed and felt insecured by those words, its just that i am feeling very much tired and i had enough of working in this type of environment. I enjoyed being scolded for things that i did wrong so that i can learn my lesson and be better in the future. Anyway, enough for this crap. Im quiting the job anyway at the end of this month J
Relationship with buaya feels like a roller-coaster ride. Sometimes it filled with excitement and sometimes it filled with tears (both, good and bad tears,ok). What do you expect, we had been together for almost 4 years now, and sometimes i do felt tired of doing the same routine everytime we went out together. Last few week, we had a fight because i couldnt stand the fact that everytime we went out during my off-day, the only thing we did together was makan and watch movie (the one that he like—like all the time,k). At one point, i had a deep conversation with him saying a little piece of my mind “ Why do i have to actually follow all the things that you like? Why do we have to do it in your way, like all the time? Why, it is always me who have to care about what u feel?” . Then i gave him my silent treatment for almost 1 week ( didnt txt him other than saying gudmornin and nite2). Then, he once noticed the different attitude of mine and he decided to confront me regarding these fragile things of ours (I thought of breaking up with him, telling him that we dont have things in common, maybe we should had consider this relationship years ago –such a waste of time). He started to explain the different-age-factor, (when my tears started to crawl down against my cheek, and my heart started to tell me that this relationship was a termendous mistake that i had done in my life,ever. Falling in love with an old man, first love pulak tu. That was huge,ok! It affected me like, i-am-going-to-die). I told him that if he wanted to give me that EXCUSE, he should consider telling me that before we actually fall for each other, like 4 years ago. Please give me reason instead of those lame excuses of his. I seriously felt like i am going to kill him for saying those words which fucking hurt my feelings. There! He had done. Thats it, i am soo ready to break-up this 4 years relationship of mine. EH, i’ll update this story later, k. My mum is calling me.. huhu…
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