Today I’m feeling a bit gloomy, and I don’t really know why. Let’s think about the possible reason that causing me to feel this terrible shit-kinda-feeling
1. Joyah called me like early in the morning asking me a favor to accompany her to register my nephew to his new school. She talked too much, telling me how pissed she was, when her friend refused to survey the school for her. Then, I scold her letting her know that she has no right to be mad at her friend since she’s the one who’s doing her a favor in the first place and before I could actually finish my lecture, she just hung up. BODO. Totally bodo, and that really spoilt my mood for like, the whole day?
2. Tried to make an effort not to argue with her by calling her cell phone for about 5 times, I think. But she never answer, which was really like “WTF, I’m the one who should be fucking mad, right now!”
3. My mum still wants me to stay at KB. She keeps on asking me, when we are coming back to KB after seeing the AJL thinging.
4. Fuck, what if I didn’t get a job before AJL? Now, I don’t have an excuse to stay at KL (even though, I already told her that its very, very hard to get a job in KB)
5. Feeling lonely, especially when buaya really didn’t pay me much attention, lately. Working, katanya. I totally doubt that. He even got the chance to attend few wedding and parties which involve the woman that he took picture with. I hate it. When I started nagging him saying “oh, you can go anywhere that you want. It’s not like you’re going to cancel your planned if I didn’t let you”. “You can gatal with anyone that you want, it’s not like I can’t do the same thing to you!” Then he said, he have to mingle with these type of people (the VIPs), if not, if he need to attend a formal event, he will be lonely, cause he knows nobody. Then I was like “oh, what you’re trying to say is that, you’ll end-up like me, isn’t?” then he paused. Then I said “talk to you later, BYE”
6. Started to process the whole conversation that I had with buaya, and started to think ’with whom to gatal with?’, ‘shit, how to gatal when I got no friends?’ , ‘Fuck, after eliza left the country, I totally got no one else’, ‘crap, no wonder buaya felt so secured with me, it is because, I got nobody else except for him =I tak laku’
With the above reasons, it can be concluded that all of it really affected my mood, today. Bye.
